Ambition

by Eric Chaet

Long before I knew what I know now
however much or little that may be
about how people struggle not just for what they need
but to use others’ efforts to their own advantage—
indignant that others were content
that I should suffer thru no fault of my own
I aligned my efforts with the struggles
of those whose suffering was no fault of their own
& with whoever there might be
likewise aligning their efforts
with those who suffer thru no fault of their own—
so that if I fail, all lose out
who suffer thru no fault of their own—
& any success I might attain will benefit
those who suffer thru no fault of their own.

I’m not trying to gain prominence by pretending
that I represent the delusions of the misguided
or by offering to give them what they desire
but which is not good for them, or for anyone.

I’ve never agreed to allow myself to be martyred—
while I struggle to be of use
to those who suffer thru no fault of their own
I need to become more & more self-reliant—
to command myself in the midst of cruelty & madness—
so that those who have aligned their efforts with the struggles
of those who suffer thru no fault of their own—
& who have likewise become more & more self-reliant
commanding themselves in the midst of cruelty & madness—
will be able to afford to align their efforts with mine
& I will be able to afford to align my efforts with theirs
& it will be to our advantage & to the advantage
of those who suffer thru no fault of their own.

Don’t imagine that I’m not ambitious!
I want to gain resources & reputation
that will amplify my ability
to make changes very nearly everyone believes impossible.
No one is more ambitious than I am.

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