Archive for June, 2019

Hello, Struggler

June 15, 2019

I have tried to make my survival & advancing advantageous to the innocent & righteous, as well as advantageous to myself.

Often, I have not known how to do that.

So I have had to do something as little harmful as possible for a while, maybe something a little useful to someone decent, to get some money. I’ve worked at a lot of jobs, of many sorts.

Or I have had to do for myself what, if I had the money, I would have hired someone to do for me.

Or — probably most of my time — I have had to consume my resources as slowly as possible, in various states of anxiety, studying anything & everything that might be of use, while wondering if I would be able to learn what would enable me to do the previously impossible, while I still had breath & a pulse.

Sometimes, I just wandered around. For several years, I hitchhiked back & forth across the USA. It was so stressful that I could never decide to do it again. I learned a lot from it, tho, that I couldn’t have learned any other way, & also experienced great joys — & great fears.

But there was a lot I needed to learn, that I never would have learned unless I stopped wandering. But that required a little bit of what commercially-oriented people call capital — a roof, say, meals, clean water, plumbing or some private place in the woods, maybe.

As for these so-called poems:

Some are more than 50 years old already, some recent. Some are survivors from eras & events in between.

Each speaks for itself.

But the whole is greater than the sum of the parts, as life is greater than the sum of its parts, as the world is greater than the sum of its parts, & as you are greater than the sum of your parts.

The so-called poems are listed in alphabetical order. You can read them in any order. “Gandhi & Chance” is the oldest. That is, it’s the first thing I wrote, that, once I’d lived with it a while, seemed really to perform a necessary, useful function, not otherwise being performed. So it’s the first thing that I wrote, that I kept.