Archive for October, 2016


October 1, 2016

These so-called poems are gambits, which I’m always making, whatever I’m doing, then cultivating, shepherding, & managing, or failing to manage to deploy.

I don’t seek to join cliques of poets, artists, analysts, or those who have agreed on this or that set of doctrines, tho I borrow freely from all. Let them resign, & join me, facing the world raw.

I’m trying to reach whoever is receptive, excluding as few as possible, requiring as little comprehension of this or that code as possible.

I manage to snatch the so-called poems, occasionally, like rare electronic or chemical reactions suddenly triggered, out of & at the end of long periods of mainly scrambling to survive, which go way beyond the limits of my patience til that point.

I’m always struggling for truth & justice, & a way beyond every one doing the best he or she can for himself, & others’ suffering none of their concern. I’m trying to live righteously, til I die. I’m trying not just to live selfishly or defensively. And I’m trying not just to live as I was programmed, or to operate in the way that gains me immediate encouragement or reward.

Like everyone else, I must provide for myself, & am surrounded by rivals for resources & authority. My costs keep going up, too.

Many of these so-called poems have been posted or published, in the USA or elsewhere, 50, 40, 30, 20, 10 years ago, or more & more recently. The viewpoints of the publications & websites have varied remarkably, from very pious to the most provocative, from many angles.

I am not competing for acclaim as a clever person. I am frankly trying to change your mind, to your advantage, & everyone else’s with whom you interact, who is not thriving at the expense of whoever can’t prevent it.

In that way, I mean to change the world for the better, irrevocably, whatever anyone thinks, doesn’t think, says, or doesn’t say.

So I am very careful to deploy only what I come, scrupulously, to believe is of real use to you & to everyone who does not thrive at the expense of whoever can’t prevent it—& those among their victims who have, in their hearts & minds, pledged allegiance to them, & serve them—including as their enforcers.

Occasionally, I change this or that one of the so-called poems in accordance with new understanding or insight, or write a new so-called poem so good, it seems to me, that I replace the one that I can most bear to part with. More often than not, this happens over a period of a few days or weeks, then stops for a longer, relatively peaceful or tumultuous, period.

I am sorry that I have not found a way to have had a more forceful effect so far among my contemporaries. I don’t claim to bear no responsibility for what happens, whatever the detriments of my beginning position, & whatever the advantages or unscrupulousness of those who have taken charge. I am always trying to become a better leader, without collapsing & becoming one more burden.

I am not a success, but not a failure, either—not dead yet, still budding deeds, more & more effective (at least, that’s the intention)—so, this collection & its consequences are developing.

Of course, without your attention & response, nothing is happening.

These so-called poems, which cost more to bring to life than anyone is likely to be able to imagine, I beg you: use them.